So today started out crap, forgot most of my books that I needed for the day, forgot my phone and MP3 player And I forgot my P.E.kit. How crap eh? Then first period I had a maths exam (mock) that was alright, I expected it to be harder to be honest but it was okay. Finished half an hour before the end. Then went to tutor where guess what, Dan is. Urrr.... Its really hard not to look at him, plus he bloody read the last post I wrote, the one about him. I was so embarrassed. And now I just wish I hadn't written it at all because we started talking bout the future n stuff and it just confused the hell outta me, fun stuff right? Imma ask mum tonight if I'm allowed out, seeing as I got grounded for going round my boyfriend's house at half 2 in the morning xD it was worth it though :)
I miss him like hell man...
Ugh, best friend Frances had a crazy day today. Wouldn't tell me what was wrong til after school and even then it seemed stupid that she was THAT upset about some tiny little thing. Her ex, Kyle, lied to her saying he was over her and now she's upset about it?! I don't understand girls or boys any more. Girls are sooooooooo much effort to be around, its always one dramatic thing after another. A person could go crazy.
So, so far its been a re-h-eeaaaalllllyyyyy bad day ):
Hopefully it'll get better soon, and hopefully mum'll let me out. So lets pray to god that she had a good day at work!! =]
Haha, also Dan has asked me to write on here how I think he feels and what I think he should feel, I'm like wtf?
But okay here goes:
What I think Dan feels:
I think he feels that everything that was between us is going but there'll always be that little bit there, that will be there because we flirty text each other and talk about rather... sexual sort of things... He brings it up not me, promise [:
Also I think he feels that he is happy where he is but doesn't want to let go of the thought of me and him together because it might happen again in the future. (He has said this nearly every time we've broken up)
What I think Dan should feel:
I think he should feel that it's over between me and him and we should let it go because we're both happy with other people and every time we've gotten together again he's always found some one else and gone off with her, every time. So to be quite frank. I don't want to be the person he always comes running back to if someone has broken up with him or he's broken up with someone. I don't want to be second best, and to be honest, I've always felt like second best to Dan, I've never expected any more or any less from him, than to find some other girl and run off with her. So I think he should just forget about us and let it go, because it hurts too much to be second best.
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