Today was okay, smoked a few, still got the packet lol. Might be seeing Jake today... dunno though. Haven't seen Chis at all today, he's getting smashed tonight so, that's going to be fun to be on the phone with. Spoke to Frances about all kinds of shit today, brang up Dan, Joe, Chris, Jake, Clinton, Oen.... just so much to talk about. Just sort of brang up all the memories of well... everything tbh.
Made me think about my relationship with Dan, now that was a tough one to keep up with. I do remember it as being a really great relationship with, no doubt, its ups and downs but we had a good run I think. I started to think about the time we went to Bugs Bottom and layed there, talking, joking around, kissing.... we weren't like going out, we were just together. It was probably the best day we ever had together, there was no hassle of being in a relationship and no friends got involved. It was just so brilliant. Makes me wonder why we couldn't have that while being together though... its very odd "/
Wow... Joe... Now that was odd. We went out 12 times over four years. Every time, it just wouldn't work but we kept going out, it was so weird... I mean, don't get me wrong, I did REALLY like him n all, but just everytime something spoiled it. And the last time was just a complete fail, he didn't feel the same way and I really wanted to make it work that time. But no, I messed it up again. Stupid effing Karney *angry face*
Anyway.... Chris.... Well, as i've said before, he's my boyfriend, i love him very much, but sometimes i just don't feel that I know him, its so strange. It's like one minute I'm really happy with him, we're talking and kissing and stuff. Then it goes quiet and I look at him and think.... who are you? It really freaks me out tbh. I dunno... It's not like I don't like him, I just don't feel I know him very well, we've known each other the amount of time we've been going out, isn't that a bit weird?
Jake.. oh gosh.... Jake.... Well I dunno what to say about him that I haven't already said. He drives me insane sometimes, I broke up with Chris like a month ago, (we got back together obv), and I told Jake that I wanted us to get back together... He said no? He said he didn't want to be my rebound. Surely if you've broken up with I dunno, bob and then you go out with bill and then you break up with bill to go back out with bob, bob isn't the rebound???? Oh I dunno, keeps saying he misses me, loves me. H esaid today that he thought we weren't as close I was like whaaaatttt?!?!?! Oh he drives me up the wall :L but I love him lol not like that obv.... well... i dunno... not as much... i guess... ARGH i dont know D: hmmm.... calm down amber...
Oen was nothing to me and nor was Clinton, Frances was talking about them.... mostly Clinton though. Kept asking me about how to get him back, I was like how am I meant to know!?!??
Boys actually drive me up the wall sometimes. They really know how to confuse you don't they?
Well after Highdown I probably won't ever see or talk to half these people anyway, kinda sad tbh. To leave the place where memories were born, friendships created and relationships loved and lost. It's bloody awful to think about it tbh. I don't want to leave Highdown, but I have to. I can't stay there anymore. I jsut, can't. Too many memories, too many rumours, too many people I know. I just can't stand seeing all their faces. "/
God... I've had a headache for the past 5 days, fucking kills man. Haven't gone to school for the past two days. Didn't really need to tbh, but thats not the point lol.
oh gosh, the other day almost killed me. Was hanging around with jack collins, chris pearson, oskar and sarah.... that day was awful. Jack told me he was in love with me and has been since before me and JAKE went out, almost 8 months ago!! He asked if there was ever a chance for us I said no.... Felt so bad, I bloody cried ): well, tis all i have to say for now lol, see ya!
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