Had a Geography exam, and you know how you look at people who haven't finished yet? I looked at Dan and now he keeps asking me about it. I mean, is it illegal to look at someone? "/ I haven't really been feeling angry lately. Just annoyed. Oh found out the other day that Frances is moving to Surrey.... on my birthday. I found out from msn/facebook. She had told Grant way before I found out. Her excuse: I didn't know how to tell you. yeah okay, well grant is basically her new best friend. Ah, I just cant be bothered any more. Are friends just made to let you down? nearly every one of mine have, I can't trust many people any more. What am I meant to do at Reading College? Stand there, smile and hope someone notices? I'm terrible at making new friends, I get too shy then end up making friends with the wrong people. Don't even know what it's going to be like, hopefully a lot better than Highdown? Sometimes I wish I could re-do Highdown, and not make as many mistakes.
I know sometimes I don't think me and Dan was a mistake, but sometimes I really do think it was. Before we ever went out, he said I don't want us to not be friends if we break up. He was right, we aren't friends. He doesn't even want people to know that we've walked together? Or even talk? Does he not understand how that makes me feel? I'll be honest, it makes me feel like a piece of dirt on someone's shoe, not wanted and disgusting... "/ but he doesn't realise that... His life is brilliant, he has everything... Great friends, great family, he's smart, talented, good looking and has a brilliant relationship with his girlfriend. He's too preoccupied to care, not that I blame him. His friends don't like me so why should he? Kinda makes me miss him more...
So, Laszlo has moved, Jacob has moved, Grant's moving and now so is Frances. Yay, my friends are leaving me... I'd never ask them to stay obviously, but it's gonna be hard to say goodbye. I don't even know what's going to happen. I'm not gonna see anyone from Highdown again apart from Chris, then if we break up, no-one. fun times. god, this is gonna be hard... to say goodbye, to leave Highdown School and Sixth Form Centre.... hmmm... No doubt I'm gonna miss the place, but I'm glad to be leaving.
I'm so bored, I have nothing to do apart from write this, and I'm running out of things to write... I honestly don't have anything else to talk about. Til next time!
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